Tuesday, November 26, 2013


Hey it's me again..never visit my own blog so often..i just don't know what to post..hurgghhh..i think it is almost 2 years i haven't written anything here..just busy with my own life..i am still the old Ezekiel..just that i'm getting fatter..

Almost 5 years in Betong...i'm thinking of moving to other place...but don't know where...

woahhh..i'm out of words now...out for now..will be hear from me soon..bye....

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

No Idea...


Nothing much changes here; a few buildings, a few new shops, etc. It’s been 3 years..geezz..time flies very fast. I started working here since 2009. I have improved myself, though I still need time to learn so many new things, not only at work, but also in everywhere I go. I have to open my eyes to my surroundings. Last year I had an accident and thank God I’m still alive; just a few cuts. But my car damaged badly. I have waited 10 months for my car to be repaired. Susah xda keta pakei jalan..huhuhu…Tpaksa pakei bas pulang Kuching. Nei po ngan……

It is 2012 now. I hope everything goes well for me. Hope for a good year and a blessed year…I will continue my story later… -to be continued-

Thursday, April 14, 2011


I'm back again...I almost can't remember my password since it's been a long time i didn't log in. I'm so sick right now. I can't do anything because my head is spinning (tok pun semadi jak). Life is never getting better. It's hard for me to say. Music become my companion. I almost lost my life. I had an accident in January. I still remember the date, that was 24th January 2011 @ 9.15 am. It happened in a seconds. At that time, my mind is empty. All i think of was mati mati mati..but thank God, nothing happen to me just a minor scratch and bodyache. But unfortunately, my car badly damaged. Now, my car still under repair..I don't know for how long.

Friday, December 24, 2010


Hello hello hello...I'm back...with running nose..hahaha..tiba2 jak bangun pagi trus flu..haiyaa..tp best la tdo bcause hari hujan..It's Christmas Eve and still have no plans..what to do?? Hanging out wif friends or stay at home..hmm..thinking thinking thinking...
Well it's up to my buddies to decide..hehehe..i on jer...Mok travel pun, not enough money..heheh..thinking of using my credit card..hmmm...no way..makin byk hutang kelak..hahaha...well what to do..ikat perut jak la...bahsa rojak dh dalam tok..malas mok skema..
Now still working...I have 8days leave left..so i start my leave on monday until 5th January..maybe minta extend 2 days..alang2...hopefully Tn Haji will approve my leave...I'm the only "Kunsil" left here..semua dh cuti...I feel very hungry..want to eat bak kut teh..tp Betong xda..huhu..mengidam tok..droooolllliiinnngggg!!
Later lah sambung agi............To Be Continued...Whatever lah..Bubye.. :P

Monday, May 3, 2010

A Sad Story

To those who are married, .. Not married .. and soon to be married, I hope you will be touched with this story... MARRIAGE When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce.. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning.. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions.. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead.. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage! If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you. If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

By: Mayie Natividad Garcia

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Happy New Year

Hi..it's 2010 now..2009 left with a lot of sweet and bad memories. A lot of bad things happens to me in 2009. I hope in 2010 will be better. I need guidance in 2010. God please lead me and show me the way.

It's already 10 days in 2010. Nothing much happens. On the First day of new year we have a good start though..we went to play paitball. Although it is painful but it's fun. But unfortunately, something bad happen to my friend and his fiance. They both had an accident on their way back to home. Sadly his fiance pass away and my friend still in coma. We will always pray for his recovery. And I hope that he will be strong. Rest in peace to his fiance.

As for me, hmm..nothing much though..I'm still the same person. I will try to be stronger this year. I have friends around me to give me support and families too...thanks to all of you. God bless all of you always. That is my prayer for all of you. I'm not perfect though, but I hope that I'll be accepted for who I am. I do made mistakes and that makes me human. LOL.

I wish all of you a Happy New Year and God bless always..Peace!!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Can't think of anything today. My car is nearly done. Maybe by next week the repairing will be done. Kinda cold in Betong. No rain but cold.

To think for a while, it is difficult to love someone. You just can't simply love someone and get married without knowing who she/he is. True love is very hard to find. We're not live in wonderland or fairy tale. I wish I am but live in reality hurt so much. We grow older every day.

Life is unfair huh?? Well sometimes I think life is unfair, but to think back, God never gives us a plan to condemned us but a plan that gives us prosperity.

But why I have to face all of the difficulties?? I'd like to question God but I can't do that. Am I born to be a loser?

Another unhappy days of my life....