Thinking all the things in the past. Some I can remember some I can't. I forgot what is the best things that ever happen to me. I have done a lot of mistakes in my life but now I can't change history. Always telling myself past is past but it keeps haunting me. Sometimes I wish life can be just like fairy tales. At the end will live happily ever after. I wish doraemon is exist but it just a cartoon. Being depressed, stressed, broken hearted is not an easy feelings to bear. Hanging out with friends sometimes make me feel at ease. Being alone.....only God knows.

2009 is not a good year for me although there are some good things happen. I feel sad. Throughout this year, I can't think even 1 happy moment that is happen to me in this year.

Why some people became egoist, hypocrite?? I don't understand? Are they trying to be someone else, to impress people? To make themselves adorable? Life is hard. When I need someone to talk to, not even single person lend their ears to me..to listen to my cry. I'm a human too though. Well..who needs me??? I'm not hoping for money neither sympathy. I just need everyone to understand me. I'm a human..I made mistakes so do everyone else? Why can't the accept me of who I am? I don't want to be some hippocratic maniac.

"IT IS BETTER TO BE HATED OF WHAT YOU ARE THAN TO BE LOVE FOR WHAT YOU ARE NOT"

What good does it makes if you be someone else?

I'm not trying to make myself pathetic.

"LOVE IS PASSION, LOVE IS KIND"

Love taught me to be passion to be kind. Eventhough people treat unfairly. Yeah, of course it is not easy to please everybody.

But to love someone who is not yours is very complicated. Loved someone very deeply, but to your realize, she is not yours...It hurts..The most difficult thing to manage is your heart. We can't control it. We can't pretend nothing happens.

Not everyone feels grateful for what you've done for them. Some might hate you more some might ignores you. It is difficult making someone to like you, but to make someone to hate you is easy even you've done nothing. Helping people make someone to hate you more. What kind of world we're living in?

Either you're sad or happy or depressed, no one cares.